I was told today that I am crazy. I already knew that. In fact, I've been told that multiple times by multiple people when I talk about what the next year looks like for me. But still, I was told today that this trip was crazy, not in a bad way, just crazy. Which got me to thinking, why is it crazy? Why am I crazy? And what made me willing to go on a crazy trip, with crazy people?
What is crazy?
So, because I've been told this by multiple people and I've started to doubt my sanity, I looked into it a little deeper. I analyzed some dictionary definitions. And decided that what others were labling crazy, I was labling the ideal. It's all a matter of perspective, here is mine.
I realized, that this kind of crazy, the kind that makes you want to pack all the belongings you deem neccessary into a backpack for nine months, get way too many vaccines, check to make sure your passport is up-to-date, begin an insane fundraising campaign, and hop on a plane and go into the complete and utter unknown, this kind of crazy, is just who I am.
This kind of crazy just does not seem crazy to me.
I'll admit, it does seem a little out of the ordinary to graduate high school and then head off on a trek around the world for nine months. But it should not seem out of the ordinary to spread the gospel, to have a heart for the nations, to want to go.
And maybe, during training camp, I will think that all of this is a little crazy. But then again,
is crazy bad?
One dictionary definition of crazy is this:
"mentally derranged, demented, insane"
This definition has most likely been the first thing some people think of when I tell them what God has called me to this next year. This definition does not necessarily strike me as positive. But crazy is a very vast term with very many meanings, and this is also a definition:
"intensly enthusiastic, passionately excited"
Or this:
"a nonconforming person"
I am perfectly alright with being labled a nonconformist or a passionately excited person. As long as your definition of crazy is passionately excited and intensly enthusiastic, then yes.
I am crazy.
I am intensly enthusiatic about following God's plan for my life. I am passionately excited about the amazing opportunity that this trip has opened up for me. I am intensly enthusiatic about experiencing new cultures and languages. I am passionately excited to meet my team and others around the world.
And I refuse to conform to the world's standards.
So in a way, yes I'm crazy.
And crazy is a wonderful thing to be.
